Mental Health


Twice now I’ve deleted a post just before hitting “Publish” out of fear of someone else’s reaction (I had the cutest intro paragraph too…). That was supposed to be the entire point of this blog- to post freely and earnestly to aid in my recovery. Of course, no speech is without consequence, but even just … Continue reading Balance

The Truth About Today

All day, I’ve felt like my chest was being crushed and like I was choking on nothing. It’s a familiar sensation, but it’s one I’ve been lucky to dodge for some time now. That’s the thing about the heart. It can mend. But that also means that it can break all over again. I know … Continue reading The Truth About Today


In her book, Life Without Ed, Jenni Schafer shares a personification of her eating disorder, whom she aptly names “Ed.” She compares Ed’s tendencies to those of an abusive ex or someone of the sort. I found it so eye-opening and relatable that I shared it with two school counselors and a psychiatrist. I even bought … Continue reading Meaningless

Becoming Unseen

“So, are you guys, close? I mean, do you do stuff toge- is it easy to get to know your fellow classmates?…” Every program tour went like this, and I wanted to kick myself for it. I’d shadow a physical therapy student around, meet faculty, and end the day with a Q&A. With each visit … Continue reading Becoming Unseen

Friends for Life

Islam simply amazes me. There are teachings for every situation you could possibly encounter- many that I never realized I would. My favorite teaching is one about friendships. I remember the day when my father told me that our souls existed before we came down to earth, and that we had friends even during that … Continue reading Friends for Life

24 at 24

A friend suggested that I write about the 24 things I have learned by the age of 24, but let’s be honest, I just don’t have that sort of wisdom. Instead, I thought I’d play it natural and write those things that I *Kylie Jenner voice* have realized about myself. AKA, this post is interesting to … Continue reading 24 at 24

Olly Olly Oxen Free

I’ll admit, I’ve been hiding lately. Specifically, I’ve been avoiding the gym. Before I get into it, I want to admit publicly (this is how I’ll hold myself accountable) that I have plans to get to the gym to work out today at 5 PM- I have a staff meeting at the same gym at 6. … Continue reading Olly Olly Oxen Free

Can You Hear Me Now?

I made a vow to myself today. For the sake of fairness, it’s one that I’ve made many times and have broken in equality. I promised myself that I would be quieter around others, subdued in my interactions and reserved in what I reveal about myself- be it in orality or in writing. I’m too … Continue reading Can You Hear Me Now?

The Burden of Proof

From therapists: “You were just laughing out in the lobby, so you’re clearly having a good day.” “You don’t look like you have an eating disorder.” “You’re not overweight, so I’m wondering where the issue is here.” “Why are you depressed? You have a lot of friends.” From friends: “You’re so oversensitive. You need to … Continue reading The Burden of Proof

I’m Starting a Blog!

So here I am doing the one thing I told myself that I would never have the time, nor the extroversion, to do- I’m starting a blog. For the past 2 years, I have been focused on getting into physical therapy school to earn my doctorate and the time has finally come- I was accepted … Continue reading I’m Starting a Blog!

Let’s Get Physical

My heels are swollen, my lower back doesn’t quite extend like it used to, and I constantly smell like a combination of hand sanitizer and latex. I love my new job. I am now entering my third month as a mobility specialist on the Up and Movin’ team at Deaconess Hospital here in Indiana. I spent … Continue reading Let’s Get Physical

10 BOPO Accounts to Follow Today


How a Ted Talk Saved My Life

Throughout college, if I ever found myself bored with work (read: always), I would tell myself that it was time for some 20 minute enlightenment and turn on a TED Talk. If you’ve never seen a TED Talk, they’re short (typically 5 to 25 minutes) lectures where a speaker gets on stage and presents about their area of … Continue reading How a Ted Talk Saved My Life


I love birthdays. I love my own birthday, sure, but, and my friends won’t believe me, I love their birthdays more. Throwing a birthday party is my Christmas (Eid?) and my favorite presents to give are handmade (no guarantee on the quality). I already have the birthday card I’ll be mailing to my best friend … Continue reading 4/10

Self -Care Sunday: Morning Walk

I’ve been having a hard time motivating myself to get outside and go for a walk, so this morning I left with a purpose- I spent a little time playing with my new camera! I don’t know a thing about photography, but I have to start somewhere, right?

10 Beautiful Journals for Stress Relief

1. Brush Hello Paperback Lined Journal by Fringe Studio. Available through Barnes & Noble for $11.95. 2. Customizable Modern Confetti Journal by Zazzle. Available through Zazzle for $11.15. 3. Green Inspired Journal by Green Inspired. Available through Target for $6.99. 4. Floral Spiral Notebook by Kate Spade New York. Available through Kate Spade New York for $18. 5. Be Brave Build … Continue reading 10 Beautiful Journals for Stress Relief

The Hardest Test

I’ve been brought up to understand that everything in life is a test. Both the good and the bad. The bad is, of course, difficult to deal with in patience and gratitude, but I think a lot of this past year has been about that. What I’m starting to notice is that I might have … Continue reading The Hardest Test

Getting the Boot

I’ve never been very good at avoiding injury. I think the longest period of time I’ve gone while being seriously involved in exercise and simultaneously injury-free was 4 months, and even then I had occasional sharp pains in my ankle. They were seemingly random, but I learned two months ago that this was actually the early … Continue reading Getting the Boot

The Problem With Change

Sometimes, people change. The problem isn’t a personality, it’s often a personality shift. I have one friend who is terrible at texting me back and who MIGHT take the time leave a voicemail every two or so years. Months can go by before he sends a response, and no matter how quickly I may shoot back a text, … Continue reading The Problem With Change

The Other Side of Recovery

Unfortunately, this isn’t about life after finding recovery. Instead, I want to talk about my shift from one disordered behavior to another. Eating disorders are complicated beasts and there’s no such thing as a “one size fits all” or even “one size fits two people in exactly the same way.” My eating disorder used to be characterized … Continue reading The Other Side of Recovery

And Thus, I Have Failed

Trigger warning. If you suffer from disordered eating or associated thoughts and feelings, please visit the National Eating Disorders Association (NEDA) website or call 1-800-931-2237 for immediate assistance. It is now exactly 1:50 AM and I can’t sleep. Thoughts of, “I’m a failure,” echo on beat with the ticking of my ceiling fan. They’re both … Continue reading And Thus, I Have Failed

Exams with Ed

trigger warning: eating disorders 10 more pounds.  I like the moment arm method more, and I know we can use that to find the torques. But can I use it for the joint reaction for- Remember when you lost all that weight and you thought you could maintain it? That was a joke.  Cosine of … Continue reading Exams with Ed